Cerebral Palsy

I was at the fastfood area of SM hypermart in Pasig a few hours ago. I was waiting for my husband who was doing the shopping. I wasn't feeling well that time so I opted to just sit it out. Across my table i saw a family of 5 (including the yaya already). The father and the older son were so huge...I mean, really obese. The other son, the handsome one, was of average built. I couldn't take my eyes off him. He's suffering from Cerebral Palsy, and he doesn't have control over his muscles so he was twitching a lot. His hands were like everywhere. It was so so hard for him to hold on to his spoon and moreso to put it in his mouth. I was like in awe of him, because I could see his tremendous effort to eat, inspite of his condition. His yaya was there, from time to time, trying to help him hold on to his fork, but he wouldn't get help from her. He's got this sort of pride and ruthless determination to beat his own illness no matter how much time it would take him. Well, it took him about two hours to finish off his meal and about 30 minutes to successfully put the straw in his mouth and drink off his soda. Now, I also know why the father and son grew that big. Probably, when they eat, either at home or outside, they wait for `handsome one' to finish his meal -no matter how long it will take. I admire him. His parents should be proud of him.

Haitus

Several years back I was then, what most people would always categorize as a workaholic and career-driven woman. Everybody thought that it would be hard for me to find someone to marry... I was just too bossy, too strong, and/or too smart. That was the impression everyone around me were getting. But that wasn't what I was silently shouting out to the world. I was just deep down inside a simple girl with simple dreams. My thought was and is until now, `no amount of success would ever equal to having a loving family of my own'.

Right now, I have a taken a haitus from work. This is my second one in 7 years. This haitus would last for a maximum of 1 year and minimum of 6 months most probably. I call this, recharging of myself. I believe our body are much like machines. If you overuse it, it will die out early. If you maintain it, it will last longer. The same with our brains. If we memorize a lot, it will run out of memory space. I know this idea may sound silly to most people. But, heck, that's what I believe in. I need to recharge. I long for one. I deserve one. I'm being as laid-back as possible or as lazy as I can be and I'm enjoying it. But then, i know it's not fair to everyone I love to be in haitus forever and that everything has to come to an end and so after this haitus, when i am finally charged up once again, i'll work again - driven, stronger and smarter than before.